Updated: Jan 15, 2020
It is when you come to the end of yourself that you can truly begin your journey towards your breakthrough.
When I was first incarcerated, I was just 17 years old. This is the time I came to the end of myself and my journey to a better life began.
Thrown into a cold concrete cell, I knew my life immediately and forever would be changed. After some weeks of being fed through the slot in the cell door and forced to shower handcuffed and shackled with my only human contact being the officer putting those shackles and cuffs on me. I was nearing my breaking point.
Could this be what the rest of my life is going to be reduced to? How long can I continue to go on like this?
As I lay back reflecting on my life and how I landed in this peculiar predicament, I realized this was rock bottom. Literally, my rock bottom was a rock bottom (the floor of my cell).
Everything in me wanted to shrink back and hide, but I knew that I could not conquer what I would not confront.
My shame and guilt left me feeling microscopic. However, I found myself on the floor broken and in pieces trying to make myself one with the dust on the poorly kept and cracked concrete floor under me.
Ironically, this was the place where I found myself crying out to Jesus and in just the nick of time a Bible was tossed into my cell. A Bible I never requested, knew how to claim, nor ever previously truly read in my life. I was desperate, I was distraught, and the Lord Jesus Christ heard my cries.
For the next nearly 24 hours I feasted on the Word of God none stop. And the light of Gods love shined in my heart and began changing me from the inside out.
For the first time in my life, I gave up fighting God and allowed God to fight for me. Immediately a joy and peace came over me that was unexplainable and unlike anything I have ever experienced. Even in my sea of uncertainty the Spirit was comforting me and assuring me that "everything was going to alright."
When it felt like things couldn't get any worse, they were beginning to change for the better.
Even when life seems out of control, God is in control. Circumstances may feel too big for us, but they are never too big for God. Even when things may not make sense to us remember that He is the Lord, the one who created us, we did not create ourselves. (Colossians 1:15-18)
People often gaze upon their temporary problems and impulsively make decisions that they will soon regret. It was in a moment like this that many people I know found themselves in when they committed the crimes that landed them in prison. They could not see the shore of success because of the deceptive fog of their circumstances. I have been in many seemingly impossible situations. Which at the moment seemed like the end of the world.
However, I have often found comfort meditating on 2 Corinthians 4:16-18 "Therefore we do not lose heart. Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day. For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal."
Let us look at the eternal purpose of our present predicaments (1 Peter 4:12-13). You may not necessarily be able to immediately change your circumstances; however you can change how you view them.
Don't get bitter get better and remember Jesus Christ did not raise on the 3rd day so you can be buried by your circumstances. He overcame so that we can be overcomers. He conquered the grave so that we can be more than conquerors in Him who loved us.
Maybe you have not been in a situation as traumatic or deprivation as incarceration or solitary confinement. Perhaps you have experienced much worse. Whatever you have gone through God wants to prove you. The Lord knows what you have in you even when you don't. (1 Corinthians 10:13)
That is why you don't tell God how big your problems are, but you tell your problems how big your God is.
No matter how bad it may seem, it gets better.
No matter what it may look like, it gets better.
No matter what your husband or wife may say, no matter what the doctor or attorney may say, no matter what your boss or the judge may say, no matter what your colleagues or confidantes may say, IT GETS BETTER.
And GOD IS IN CONTROL!
So don't lose heart. Stay encouraged and know that it gets better.
Lord, give me the grace and strength I need to hold on when I want to let go and the wisdom and discernment to let go when I want to hold on. In Jesus' name, Amen.
SCRIPTURES TO PONDER:
-What hope do you have for your circumstances or current situation to get better?
-Do you believe that you deserve better?
-What do you need to let go of to grab hold of and experience a better life?
-How did this message specifically speak to you?
-How can you immediately start to apply this message to your life?
You can contact me at:
Cyril Walrond 309756
Stafford Creek Correction Center
191 Constantine Way
Aberdeen, Wa 98520
Cyril Walrond D.O.C #309756